Sinful Sunday: I'm only human

Yes Genji I know, I'm only human. But you know what? I'm ok with that! I have moments where I'm angry, crazy, depressed, frustrated, happy, irritated, sarcastic and even weird. But that's ok, because it means I'm only human and not some robot in human disguise! Oh crap, I certainly hope I didn't make certain people start their conspiracy theories with that type of talk! The thing is that I'm not perfect nor do I wish to be, yes I say and do dumb things but once again I'm only human so in a way it's ok. I think...

Only human as an excuse?

Ok so I'm only human so I can be a complete utter douchebag online or very toxic to other players? You could do that but I think a lot of people would really wish that you didn't do that. It's easy to say you're sorry but isn't it better to just completely avoid doing or saying something bad? I know when I'm frustrated or mad I say some bad things, not to others because I mute myself so others don't hear my anger or frustration, and I always regret that later. It's just in the moment I get so frustrated or mad that you don't think clearly and do and say some really dumb things. Which is why I mute myself because deep down inside you know it's bad and you don't want to spread that stupidity. But the fact remains that I'm only human, so yeah I say and do some dumb things every now and then. I try to be a better person but it's not always that easy, especially when you're a hot head like me. If someone is being a complete utter douchebag to me then don't expect me to always be mister friendly, I can be a complete utter douchebag as well! Once again it's easy to say that I'm only human but in fact it feels good to give people a taste of their own medicine. For example a camper that keeps sitting in corners and keeps gunning you down is someone you want to gun down a lot in the game and if you can do that then that feels good. Maybe it's a bit childish but honestly it feels good to get back at someone. I try to keep games fun but sometimes things get personal or you just had enough of someone and you really want to get some revenge. I think that feeling is natural, because it's not fun when someone else ruins your game experience with frustrating or irritating behaviour. Of course it's easier to just block and ignore these type of people, especially toxic players, but we aren't all so wise to stand above certain behaviour. Sometimes it just feels good to get some revenge or to teach someone a lesson. In the end we are only human.

Try to be a better person?

I honestly try, every day of every year I try to start the day with good intentions and try to make it a good day. But bad things happen and when you're quickly annoyed and frustrated with certain things that a good day can easily turn into a bad day. You end up screaming and cursing at your tv because you can't get an achievement or trophy, someone screwed you over in multiplayer or for some lame reason you keep disconnecting. It's easy to give in to anger, to be so mad at everything and just let loose the beast within. But sometimes it's better to take a step back, take a break or maybe spend some time with family and friends. It's good to get your mind off whatever it is that's bothering you. If you put the focus too much on what you want then even the slightest thing that could hinder you becomes the spark that makes you explode. We are only human but at the same time we do have intelligence, we don't have to be dumb mindless animals. You can learn from mistakes, become a better person and hopefully one day make the world a better place. Now that would be the dream and maybe it's just a dream that will never become reality but as long as you keep that in your heart there is always a chance that one day this dream could become reality! I know that we are all humans, we are all just here for a short time but we can try to make the most of that time here. It doesn't all have to be bad, we don't all have to hide behind excuses why we are what we are. Nobody is perfect but we can all help to make the world a little bit better. If that means I have to bite my tongue when I play games just so I don't scream my lungs out in anger or frustration and probably make people outside my house think that I'm being murdered or something then that is something I'm willing to do. I'm only human but I'm willing to try and be a better person, I'll never be perfect but that shouldn't stop someone from trying to be a better person. At least that's what I think. What about you? What do you want to do with your life?